Yeah...like how my title spells....a mistake, a man-made error of what i meant by the meaning of a 'stand-alone complex'....probably i was just finding a more suitable, bombastic words to replace the word 'independent'.... but yeah...we still could not get away from the fact of what the real meaning of what this 'stand-alone complex' really stands for....
a 'stand-alone complex'...actions of individuals creating a seemingly concerted effort...initially it really seemed rather unrelated for some events but yet similar in some ways, actions or thoughtsthough sometimes its just unknown why do we use it at times...that's stand-alone complex....
How should I put it? hmmmm.... basically the title Anonymous....its part of the stand-alone complex that i'm trying to highlight... You don't know when, where or most importantly who really started with this title or name 'Anonymous'...basically it can just be anyone.... well there is still many more of how to explain what 'stand-alone complex means' will tell once i get more info...but for now...yeah....that's the brief idea of it^^
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Monday, June 16, 2008
Changes
haha....i'm back...but this time i'm not going post something new...but rather repost something that i've posted somewhere else...so read and hope that you will understand....
I was browsing thru my friendster...which eventually i read my blogs that i once typed in my friendster... one that caught my eyes was da one rite after the general election....i wondered why did i blogged thr and not here....but anyway...to those who did not noe bout it..here it is...
Changes...its what everybody wants...changes in every aspects of life...But if you want a change, why don't work it out yourself instead of relying on people to do it for you, or change their course of their lives for you while you just shake your legs around...
This words came from my mind after a mixture of thoughts. Thoughts? What thoughts? Probably it seems a little weird for a person like me to actually think much about a matter, but then it just came out from my mind. My mom just described to me how people complain in the office of the new DUN. The things they complain, its not something that can't be done by their own hands, but why not do it themselves? Reason is simple, "It's their job to do it for us, let them do their job." From that are you telling me we have no responsibility at all into improving our own place? Our own habitat?
That's just as an example. People tend to rely on others to do changes while not doing anything themselves. Sad to say, I've meet up with some future adults which acted the same way which i mentioned. Don't meet up with their criteria? You're out! Not bloody welcomed anymore. Not much of the use to them anymore. Don't have to look at politics to see this kinda situation. It's known that some make friends to make sure that they change for the better and more, but some just misuses the needs of the change and hurt people when use of the friend has a purpose. A purpose once reach it limits then off you go. That's not what its suppose to be.
Some might think...a person will not change anything. For me, a person can change his/her self and eventually change the world itself. So change what you are able to change, don't leave for others. (ps: blogging in the middle of the night really ain't good...XD feeling sleeping liao...tata~~)
Changes....isn't something that everyone wants? like i posted before...everyone wants changes from almost every aspects...if its bad,v wan it good....if it's good, v wan it to be better... be as v noe...changes doesn't just come and does miracles for us for FREE... it doesn't just come knocking on your doorstep..."helloooo....changes is here..." well...if it does, i think most of us will freak out...coz v can't c changes physically.... XD (catch my drift? u can't c changes....if u can't c...whr is da voice coming from?)
I forgotten to add something after i posted the blog on friendster...well of coz after i read it only i notice....well...there is one more point dat i didn't mention in the blog... the thing is this....in our society...well to most of us now, campus life.... ppl tend to grumble at someone else bout ppl's lifestyle...the way ppl live....the way ppl bring themselves up...honestly speaking, i used to be one of dat kind of ppl...but now...i'm da one being discussed among ppl in my campus...not many ppl understand my way of living my life....but because of some certain individuals...some actually hated me and even condamned my style...the "best" ever comment so far...'tong...u r hopeless... get a life...change urself.." well...knowing this, i think most ppl if were to meet up wif such 'comments' they would get real mad n angry at things n etc,etc... well...knowing my old self....i would hav trashed the person...haha...but now..actually accepted it...i changed but i dont change for their sake...i didn't change to suit their taste... i change for the better me...a me which i am comfortable wif n i believe many r too... u c...wats most important in life about changes in ppl around u...is not about wanting ppl to change just suit your taste....(well if everyone change to be da same...isn't it gonna be boring? then wat for v r different from each other once born?) the important thing is changing urself to understand and to accept wat ppl say and how they live n etc, etc...coz if u keep wanting ppl to change for ur opinion and if the person doesn't change isn't gonna be frustrating...n like dat...a friendship would just be ruined....so..y bother doing so? ^^
so...change..for urself...towards the society...towards future ahead...n most importantly...comfortable wif urself....n mayb..if u r lucky..someone who is feeling comfortable wif who u r would just come along^^
I was browsing thru my friendster...which eventually i read my blogs that i once typed in my friendster... one that caught my eyes was da one rite after the general election....i wondered why did i blogged thr and not here....but anyway...to those who did not noe bout it..here it is...
Changes...its what everybody wants...changes in every aspects of life...But if you want a change, why don't work it out yourself instead of relying on people to do it for you, or change their course of their lives for you while you just shake your legs around...
This words came from my mind after a mixture of thoughts. Thoughts? What thoughts? Probably it seems a little weird for a person like me to actually think much about a matter, but then it just came out from my mind. My mom just described to me how people complain in the office of the new DUN. The things they complain, its not something that can't be done by their own hands, but why not do it themselves? Reason is simple, "It's their job to do it for us, let them do their job." From that are you telling me we have no responsibility at all into improving our own place? Our own habitat?
That's just as an example. People tend to rely on others to do changes while not doing anything themselves. Sad to say, I've meet up with some future adults which acted the same way which i mentioned. Don't meet up with their criteria? You're out! Not bloody welcomed anymore. Not much of the use to them anymore. Don't have to look at politics to see this kinda situation. It's known that some make friends to make sure that they change for the better and more, but some just misuses the needs of the change and hurt people when use of the friend has a purpose. A purpose once reach it limits then off you go. That's not what its suppose to be.
Some might think...a person will not change anything. For me, a person can change his/her self and eventually change the world itself. So change what you are able to change, don't leave for others. (ps: blogging in the middle of the night really ain't good...XD feeling sleeping liao...tata~~)
Changes....isn't something that everyone wants? like i posted before...everyone wants changes from almost every aspects...if its bad,v wan it good....if it's good, v wan it to be better... be as v noe...changes doesn't just come and does miracles for us for FREE... it doesn't just come knocking on your doorstep..."helloooo....changes is here..." well...if it does, i think most of us will freak out...coz v can't c changes physically.... XD (catch my drift? u can't c changes....if u can't c...whr is da voice coming from?)
I forgotten to add something after i posted the blog on friendster...well of coz after i read it only i notice....well...there is one more point dat i didn't mention in the blog... the thing is this....in our society...well to most of us now, campus life.... ppl tend to grumble at someone else bout ppl's lifestyle...the way ppl live....the way ppl bring themselves up...honestly speaking, i used to be one of dat kind of ppl...but now...i'm da one being discussed among ppl in my campus...not many ppl understand my way of living my life....but because of some certain individuals...some actually hated me and even condamned my style...the "best" ever comment so far...'tong...u r hopeless... get a life...change urself.." well...knowing this, i think most ppl if were to meet up wif such 'comments' they would get real mad n angry at things n etc,etc... well...knowing my old self....i would hav trashed the person...haha...but now..actually accepted it...i changed but i dont change for their sake...i didn't change to suit their taste... i change for the better me...a me which i am comfortable wif n i believe many r too... u c...wats most important in life about changes in ppl around u...is not about wanting ppl to change just suit your taste....(well if everyone change to be da same...isn't it gonna be boring? then wat for v r different from each other once born?) the important thing is changing urself to understand and to accept wat ppl say and how they live n etc, etc...coz if u keep wanting ppl to change for ur opinion and if the person doesn't change isn't gonna be frustrating...n like dat...a friendship would just be ruined....so..y bother doing so? ^^
so...change..for urself...towards the society...towards future ahead...n most importantly...comfortable wif urself....n mayb..if u r lucky..someone who is feeling comfortable wif who u r would just come along^^
Saturday, June 14, 2008
The 'yes' man...
The first time i heard of this term, i was like..."what the....what's that suppose to mean?" But from what it sounds like...I realise that the meaning is actually very simple....a person who only says yes... At one point of the view, its good...But when it comes to hierarchy of power and authorities in certain aspects, its no longer what is suppose to seems like...to the chinese, its called "cleaning/polishing people's shoes"...when it comes into decision making and just follow with what people thinks you should do without thinking twice whether you should do or not....to people, its called brainless..(please excuss me for my rudeness, just being straight-forward^^ hope you don't mind)
For me, I won't do anything much but only to tell them....every single one of us are just like computer's operating system....Which what we known as stand-alone systems....We are like computer AIs...learn what we learn, digest them but analyse them at the same time too....we are given brains to think, to analyse and also to act to out thought, which ever is rational and for the good of us....
I've watched Ghost-in-the-Shell...well...practically, so far of what i've watched, i've understand this point...with a certain degree of confidence and faith in yourself....we are able to make a difference for ourselves if we are able to think and do things on our own... and just being a 'yes' man/girl or whatever it is... aren't like computers which some of the programs act on reponses and commands... but like what i've mentioned...we aren't like computers...we are all stand-alone complexes....we are able to stimulate, find answer, find solutions, able to think for what is rational to our bodies ourselves....that's what makes us complicated, makes us differ from almost anything else in this world...
WAKE UP! WAKE UP i say...keep yourself together....non of us are follower who only blindly say yes....we are not people who just follow other's opinion blindly....we aren't born to be followers...that's what i can say.... What i meant as stand-alone complex is that no matter what it is, we are still able to move on with or without people's support.... We live up to our own lives and not living on others nor people living to us...we are able to descriminate what's good and what's bad for us.... That's what i meant by stand-alone...
I urge those who thinks of the status of where placing whoever beside us to be controlled or to control others as you think to change your way of thinking, and relate yourself more to reality....this world is full of this phrase... "What goes around, comes around"...
You don't need to have the abilities nor the capabilities of being a leader to do so....you are a leader of your own...only your are able to be firm and to change your and only yourself...the rest is up to others....to do for themselves....do not try to push nor do not try to harm others when trying to persuade them to follow you....act on yourself before thinking acting on others... in a rude manner... "Mind Your Own Business"...
Well..back into studying my microbiology for tomorrow's quiz....JA~~ ^^
For me, I won't do anything much but only to tell them....every single one of us are just like computer's operating system....Which what we known as stand-alone systems....We are like computer AIs...learn what we learn, digest them but analyse them at the same time too....we are given brains to think, to analyse and also to act to out thought, which ever is rational and for the good of us....
I've watched Ghost-in-the-Shell...well...practically, so far of what i've watched, i've understand this point...with a certain degree of confidence and faith in yourself....we are able to make a difference for ourselves if we are able to think and do things on our own... and just being a 'yes' man/girl or whatever it is... aren't like computers which some of the programs act on reponses and commands... but like what i've mentioned...we aren't like computers...we are all stand-alone complexes....we are able to stimulate, find answer, find solutions, able to think for what is rational to our bodies ourselves....that's what makes us complicated, makes us differ from almost anything else in this world...
WAKE UP! WAKE UP i say...keep yourself together....non of us are follower who only blindly say yes....we are not people who just follow other's opinion blindly....we aren't born to be followers...that's what i can say.... What i meant as stand-alone complex is that no matter what it is, we are still able to move on with or without people's support.... We live up to our own lives and not living on others nor people living to us...we are able to descriminate what's good and what's bad for us.... That's what i meant by stand-alone...
I urge those who thinks of the status of where placing whoever beside us to be controlled or to control others as you think to change your way of thinking, and relate yourself more to reality....this world is full of this phrase... "What goes around, comes around"...
You don't need to have the abilities nor the capabilities of being a leader to do so....you are a leader of your own...only your are able to be firm and to change your and only yourself...the rest is up to others....to do for themselves....do not try to push nor do not try to harm others when trying to persuade them to follow you....act on yourself before thinking acting on others... in a rude manner... "Mind Your Own Business"...
Well..back into studying my microbiology for tomorrow's quiz....JA~~ ^^
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Reality SUX!!!
'REALITY SUX!!!!!!' Don't anyone just hates it that way....many people at least at a point will actually hate their own life till they really wanna give up... well....i can't really deny that i've had this kind of thinking before....but since i'm able to survive up till now (which i used to think that it's a miracle for me...wahaha XD), so i shall share a little of how to make your life a little more better than what you're experiencing now^^ Don't get me wrong...i'm not giving advice nor instructions on how to live on your life...i'm just merely telling you my side of the story and hope that you are able to get something from it^^
hmmm...how shall I start then....why don't I list down of what problems that I've been thru lately...^^
1. Accused and being made as public enemy, weirdo, d*****s (sorry, can't curse..XD), bad person to meet especially gals from people in my uni.
2. Pressure of failure, of what i'm unable to achieve and letting people down.
3. Unable to accept the fact for things that happened or being in the state of denial.
4. People double-crossing me....
5. People butt-ing in my agenda and sometimes ruinning it at the same time...
6. Meeting someone who tries to be the best at both sides with a different motive than what I see...aka Two Face
Well, that about how many that i can remember...haha
The above of what I had mentioned i believe many of you had also went thru the exact same thing as I do. At that time when I was having these problems, I used to feel very down, which includes asking myself several 'whys'....
After going thru all these....what i can say is.. SNAP OUT OF THOSE NONSENSE THINGS...just snap out or you will be stranded forever in this 'sea' of society... I almost got stranded out there without any life line.... I used to feel so down to the point I even think that my family members weren't helping when they had been my source of support for such a long time...many life line had been thrown to me during those times but I've just rejected it... Scared that I would be a burden to them.... But if you are burden to you family members, then why would they ever bare you ever since you were born? think about it^^
As for the other parts that had gotta do with human relationships, like betrayal and etc etc. 1 sentence that I've learnt some where... "Forgive and forget for they have done and change"...I know many would resolve to anger or even go for the last resorts like hiting people, and some would even commit suicide...(to those who do things like what I mentioned like mocking, accussing people and caused them to commit suicide...ethically, aren't you commiting a murder? Think about it if you really did one...and think from the other view when you are the one who got back-fired?)
Yes, just forgive and forget....just move on with your life when ever there is an obstacles....find your most trusted person...talk to them a bout it...and never reject any help from others...you aren't alone...I believe no matter who you are and what is your identity...there will always be someone beside you...if you don't...hehe...I don't mind lending an ear and opening my hands to lend a helping hand...^^ Like one chinese saying..."When you fall, pick yourself up and keep going, never to look back into the past of failures and mistakes but learn to receive, absorb, and change"^^
That's all for now....kinda busy these days till I was unable to keep up with blogging and composing my stories...all left hangging.. XP But anyhow...JA~NE~~~^^
hmmm...how shall I start then....why don't I list down of what problems that I've been thru lately...^^
1. Accused and being made as public enemy, weirdo, d*****s (sorry, can't curse..XD), bad person to meet especially gals from people in my uni.
2. Pressure of failure, of what i'm unable to achieve and letting people down.
3. Unable to accept the fact for things that happened or being in the state of denial.
4. People double-crossing me....
5. People butt-ing in my agenda and sometimes ruinning it at the same time...
6. Meeting someone who tries to be the best at both sides with a different motive than what I see...aka Two Face
Well, that about how many that i can remember...haha
The above of what I had mentioned i believe many of you had also went thru the exact same thing as I do. At that time when I was having these problems, I used to feel very down, which includes asking myself several 'whys'....
After going thru all these....what i can say is.. SNAP OUT OF THOSE NONSENSE THINGS...just snap out or you will be stranded forever in this 'sea' of society... I almost got stranded out there without any life line.... I used to feel so down to the point I even think that my family members weren't helping when they had been my source of support for such a long time...many life line had been thrown to me during those times but I've just rejected it... Scared that I would be a burden to them.... But if you are burden to you family members, then why would they ever bare you ever since you were born? think about it^^
As for the other parts that had gotta do with human relationships, like betrayal and etc etc. 1 sentence that I've learnt some where... "Forgive and forget for they have done and change"...I know many would resolve to anger or even go for the last resorts like hiting people, and some would even commit suicide...(to those who do things like what I mentioned like mocking, accussing people and caused them to commit suicide...ethically, aren't you commiting a murder? Think about it if you really did one...and think from the other view when you are the one who got back-fired?)
Yes, just forgive and forget....just move on with your life when ever there is an obstacles....find your most trusted person...talk to them a bout it...and never reject any help from others...you aren't alone...I believe no matter who you are and what is your identity...there will always be someone beside you...if you don't...hehe...I don't mind lending an ear and opening my hands to lend a helping hand...^^ Like one chinese saying..."When you fall, pick yourself up and keep going, never to look back into the past of failures and mistakes but learn to receive, absorb, and change"^^
That's all for now....kinda busy these days till I was unable to keep up with blogging and composing my stories...all left hangging.. XP But anyhow...JA~NE~~~^^
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Uni and its various inhabitants
Hi-sa-shi-bud-thi....thats the first thing i start saying when i meet up with my last schoolmates... It has really been a long time since i met them... Today I went out to get my laptop to check...seems like it's hard disk really 'died' liao.... T.T my datas.... really make me wanna cry nia.... anyway, today i brought Teck Khiam, who used to be my ex-schoolmate during my Form 6 years...we even went to Penang together last time.... Nice of him to tag along... but speaking bout' the topic, yeah we pratically talked to each other bout the kind life that we are going through all this while...the most that we've talked about is not the best party that joined, not which one of us gets the best gal, but the kinds of people that we met during campus life...
The list of the types of people that we've meet so far:
1. The selfish only wants benefit for themselves type
2. The sabotage type
3. The ones who wanna just 'stab' you for the sake of doing so
4. The type that influence people to do their dirty jobs
There many more but I couldn't remember much...hehe..pai seh...but anyway it seems like most of us ended up meeting the same type of people around us...typical eh.... But anyway this post ain't the post on how to handle such persons but more like letting you know that such a person exists...no matter how far into the society you go into...^^
Well so far i've really met that much kinds of people.... at times it really hurts me for knowing people like them but then its also a part of growing in this society^^
What i can say is...endure...you don't have to be them to win them at times....patients is virtue.... haha..over-thinking liao...very tired....don't want my holidays to end up being angry wif people rite? XD
So to those who wanna get rid of being 'destroyed' by them..just endure n you will save yourself from almost anything n learn to grow^^
The list of the types of people that we've meet so far:
1. The selfish only wants benefit for themselves type
2. The sabotage type
3. The ones who wanna just 'stab' you for the sake of doing so
4. The type that influence people to do their dirty jobs
There many more but I couldn't remember much...hehe..pai seh...but anyway it seems like most of us ended up meeting the same type of people around us...typical eh.... But anyway this post ain't the post on how to handle such persons but more like letting you know that such a person exists...no matter how far into the society you go into...^^
Well so far i've really met that much kinds of people.... at times it really hurts me for knowing people like them but then its also a part of growing in this society^^
What i can say is...endure...you don't have to be them to win them at times....patients is virtue.... haha..over-thinking liao...very tired....don't want my holidays to end up being angry wif people rite? XD
So to those who wanna get rid of being 'destroyed' by them..just endure n you will save yourself from almost anything n learn to grow^^
Saturday, May 3, 2008
Argh!!! MEB...YAY!! Last Paper!!!
Hey...this is another post about the finals that i'm going thru this time of year and this semester... I'm quite happy that this sem is almost over, just the final piece of paper to get thru with... Very happy that is the last paper...but the thing is...MEB.... the following are pictures that will show you my condition....
D....
D.E......
D.E.A....
D.E.A.D......
That's rite.... DEAD... hahaha...wanna noe the reason? Here it is...
M...
M.E....
M.E.B...
Yes....Its MEB.... Metabolic Biochemistry..... OMG so much reactions to memorize.... but what to do.....just hav to fo it ba..^^ Last paper.... I will strive on to the very last minute with this paper...^^ then HOLIDAY!!!! XD By then, MISSION KAN-IRIU!!! XD
Some random things that i drew when I'm bored of studying a bit...hehe
Link of this blogspot...hehe...
Another blogspot which i'm associated with....one of the pioneers of that blog...hehe....to UTARian..must check out o...^^v
OMG!!! I'm TAGGED???!!!!
OMG!!! Kena Tagged again...looks like i really have to do it....Sorry Winney...I noe u Tagged me long time ago...give me some time k...I'll post ur's soon... hehe... Well... let's see da questions and see wat i answered k... ^.^
1. At what age do you wish to get marry?
At first if was very, very illogical....till i get my research done...but now I think i'll stick back to reality like wat all this blog is all about...reality....Let me think...below the age of 35 i guess..
2. Who is more important to you? Friends or girlfriend
Sorry Kelvin...have to change the question...lol... Well lets see...though girlfriend is much more important but i'll make things as even as possible...like how i've been maintaining all these...not really successful but i strive to make things better...^^
3. Who is the person you trust the most?
haha...totally different from Kelvin...I kinda trust 2 person in my life now....^^...both as equally important
4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
haha...i think...i lost this confidence in me once....will never lose it again...
5. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
to able to gain enough knowledge to cure people around me from diseases dat once grabbed someone influencial enough to me...
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
LOL...law of light in physics r Kelvin...lol.... XD well...look at it...as long v imagine, the rainbow will always be thr, like hope n future too....wat v need is a strong heart and determination to obtain wat v want... if it exist in u, to u, for u...then it shall be thr...
7. What is your goal for this year?
get myself better...to obtain wat i need in order to get closer to my dream
8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Do you believe in reincarnation then? if you do then eternity love shall be thr
9. Have you broken someone heart that she/he tried to commit suicide?
not that i noe of....i may not be mean to do such a thing..but sometimes my kindness does do such a thing, well...just heart broken....
10. What feeling do you love most?
the feeling of my existance in public's eyes...as someone who i am n not da one being said thru rumors...
11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
requirements r not needed....search thru ur heart n seek for the one you love...if its me then dat is all i need...
12.Have you ever hated someone very deeply before?
'hate' was something i erased partially away from my 'dictionary'...lol....
13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yes....anyone is a fren....no matter to them i'm a fren or a foe....as long u dont hurt me or anyone beside me dat is....
14. Do you believe in GOD?
yes....well...i'm still a human...i will believe as it is....the All Mighty One...
15. What do you think is the most important thing in in your life?
Every single one around me....
16. Who cares for you the most?
my family, n those who trusted me for my believes and also my views
17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
who is dear to me
18. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
regret is one thing dat i learn to grow strong from....n still learning to grow on....but i dont just grieve over regret...
19. IF time were to rewind, will you want it to be?
a better person...but if too much i'll probably be back in my mom's womb or even as part of my dad's sperm and my mom's ovum....lol XD
20. What will you do if your mums gives u anything you want?
I'll probably be spoiled like mad....now itself i'm already half spoiled which has caused my mom lots of trouble...sry dat i always increase on spending...i'm so sry....but i'm trying my best...
Instructions:Remove one question from below,and add in your personal question.Make it a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people.List them out at the end of the post.Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged.Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all :D
1.Yong
2.Paul
3.Belle
4.Yeori
5.Apple Wey Wey
6.William Ang
7.Winney
8.Stephalicious Stephy.. XD
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