Upset

"some times, its quite sad to have your actions to be suspicious even if its meant to keep yourself from being in a losing situation. Most of the time is ignorable, but this time it hurts bad."

This is the sentence that got my into brain ever since an incident happened. I know its my fault, I know it wrong to ask. But I'm just trying to avoid any mistakes from happening. If this are lost in between, I have nothing to refer to, nor do I have the proof that I've done things right. If its done wrongly, who am I suppose to go to?

If I have a choice given in the same situation, I would have done the same thing again. Selfish? I don't know. Honestly, I was weighing between my lost and other's. I thought the understanding in between would resolve any conflict, though knowing myself something would happen but I just gave it a shot. Looks like now, its still ended up a bit sour. My situation, I wish some would actually understand a little more in depth, but assumption are more than it is to many. Even so, I would just give a friendly face, and even give a helping hand no matter how deep he/she throws me in a deep pit of trouble or suffers.

No, I'm not pointing fingers to anyone. Its just the same thought that got me sometimes. I've been weighing my self importance to others at times. In today's society, its not wrong to think so, but if others would to do the same thing, they would eventually think differently. Its a cause and effect world out there people say, if you don't do this, you'll get the other. Sometimes, decisions like these spoils relationships and sometimes the mental damage. The funny thing is, I don't even know which to choose, to harm others or to save self?

I've been nagged, scolded when I was a kid, and lectured when I was teenager of the same matter. I was always told that I have a big 'example' in front of my eyes, everyday of what not to do, but in the end I got myself hurt, no one knows of the existence of such problem, others happy, life goes on. Easy isn't it for others? But if it's the other way around, relationships are hurt, things goes bad, things doesn't goes on well. In either ways, I'm hurt.

If one is in my shoes, I'm not surprise if self is given more weigh than others. Reasons? Who wants to be in the giving end? Some may not feel it now, but when time comes you would. Everyone wishes others to understand them, but would those others take the step to understand others first? That's the main question.

Upset as I am now, I do not wish to upset anyone in this post. I'm sorry if I offended anyone in this post.

Long post after a long time away from blogging. Long time to read for readers. and so Long for now. Nites~

of tiramisu and cheese cake.....

i found this sentence when i was finding the meaning of both tiramisu and cheese cake. "Did you know that the literal meaning of Tiramisu is ‘pick-me-up’ and that Venetian courtesans used to eat it before their gentlemen arrived for the evening because they believed it would give them the energy to make love all night?” when i found out about it i was like...whoa!!! i noe lah 'pick me up' but energy to make love? XD

Tiramisu, did I miss you....haha....really i dont know how i came out wif it...but thx ya dat i post it up ur blog...haha....i'm not really dat good in words de leh... XD
but really, when ever u think of the meaning of tiramisu, take me away, werent u thinking of someone? missing someone? XD dats wat i think lah^^

cheese cake....hmmm....nothing much besides sweet from outside, sticks in the mouth, melts on the tongue....tongue, heart of taste...thus meaning indirectly melts in the heart... whoa! though only something that short but is enough i guess... melts in the heart or melt the heart? XD thats all dat i found bout the meanings...haha to anyone who read this n would like me to add something bout it just comment in this post n i'll add it on^^

Busy..

ZzzzZZzzZZzZzZzzZZZZ................busy busy.....FYP-ing.... ARGH.....I need inspirations!!!!!!!...><

pics of the day

one update....I'm learning phtography...haha

Back but with no new hitz yet

YO!!! i'm back after working hard for my semester....hopefully it pays off.... anyway..nothing much to update yet...not really don't have, but more like too much till the point i forgot what I wanna update...haha...

Anyway, I'm starting a new section in this blog... It's called the "my picture of the day"

I'm no photographer, but just someone who is interested to learn more bout it... My pics ain't nice but I'll keep learning...haha.... the following I took it with my dad's Nikon CoolPix S200... I saw this kid looking at all these guitars so i decided to take his pic though I'm high up above

Actions and Responsibility

Finally, I'm able to post here again....been busy try to catch up with my own studies...haha...

For the past few days, 3 news caught my attention.
1. The lost of Yasmin Ahmad
2. Case of Teoh Beng Hock
3. Barrack Obama's apology


I will not discuss anything about the truth and facts of each cases, neither am I going condemn or post something inappropriate. Instead, I'm going to comment about the reaction of people around about the cases.

First of all, I would like to send my condolences to the family of Yasmin Ahmad. She was a wonderful and inspiring person. Lively as she was, she had contributed much in the movie industry as well as many of the popular advertisements under the name of Petronas. When I thought I could get my opportunity to meet her face to face, it faded. Well, I guess it ain't my luck huh... But truly, she is a real treasure of Malaysia and I'm proud if her as a Malaysian.

I remember, past few days, when I came across my friend's facebook status regarding on the sad news of Yasmin Ahmad, someone actually commented that my friend is ignorant on the case of Teoh Beng Hock, which in turn leads my second topic, case of Teoh Beng Hock. I will not mention the name who commented the status, but I would like to highlight the importance of responsibility towards the action that one is going take.

Have you ever wonder or thinking twice of the consequences that would bound to happen for the action you are about to make?

The particular person who commented on my friend status says that how we are ignoring the fact of the case of Teoh is totally reluctant and has no guts nor the bravery to stand up for the cause. Sadly to say, many people has the same kind of mindset for such a sensitive issue. I'm not pro-government nor am I anti-government, but in my opinion, IF one can be responsible for what-ever that had happened including plunging the country into chaos, I don't see what is wrong with doing so provided its on the correct cause.

This has seems to be a major problem in the world. For many to think, they will just do what they think is right without taking into the account of what might happen next, and when things happen after quite sometime then the responsibility is pushed away, neglecting the responsibility. This is the reason of the happenings in many third world country and also to the countries which were in chaos, causing death to many. The last thing that we ever need is another May 13th incident to be happening.

As for example, my third point, Barrack Obama apology towards the police after what he has done, even for a person with such power like him. It is not because of guilt, it is not because that he was forced to, but its because of the responsibility for the thing he has cause due to the action that took.

In short, if what you've started, even it has happened for quite sometime since your last action, has become the spark of tragedies and incidents, please do be responsible for it. If not you are just a normal human who just follows instincts which might cause the life of many.

Cheers^^

Happy Father's Day

For a day like this...I only think of how much my father has done his part of being a parent. He may not be the perfect father, but among the things that most fathers do, he has done several things that has out-done any father out there, he has the perfect side for those he is able to achieve for us, not to mention his tremendous patiences and sense of humour. For that, I wish my dad, happy father's day. Dad, I Love You!!

Dream come true

Yes....it is who you think it is in the picture...from the left: My mom, Tun M, Me, and my sis.

today....i've been granted a wish....a wish that not one normally usually get....its to meet up with one of the most respectful person in Malaysian history, Tun M, our ex-Prime Minister...whoa.....happy I am...never once i dreamt te day would actually come true....This morning i got myself up at 6.30am just to go all the way to Putrajaya to meet up with him....and what's best...I manage to take a photo with him.....and with my mom and sis as well^^ well....i can say that besides my dad, he is my role model. Despite his age, he still has this really quick mind, and not many is able to out-smart him.... I guess that's what it takes to be a great leader huh...^^ I hope i get as lucky as today....*peace*

The following are the pictures i took at Putrajaya.

The Meaning of Friendship

"Friendship....what does it really mean?"

This a question asked by one of my friend, depressed and sad over the situation that who she have thought to be her best friend has done something that is showing none the less being less sincere as a friend.

"What does it takes to be a friend?" This should be the question, i felt. Sometimes don't you ever felt that you could find a book with the title: "Dummies guide to be a Good Friend." or even "Dummies guide to True Friendship" and pass to the person who you thought as a good friend that has done something a friend shouldn't have done?

I had my Toxicology tutorial last Wednesday and my lecturer had something that is really true about having friends. "A good friend is the one who stabs u in front while makes you feel good, changes you. The one who acts in front and stabs you on the back is not a friend." Though questioned myself why does she ever use the word stab...haha....

Anyway its quite true, a true friend will never do anything bad to you or even neglect you, they would tell you straight at the face on your problems and at the same time advices and helps you on the way. A true friend will never forgets a friend, and will ask their friend for anything though the chances might be slim without even a second thought. A true friend will never forgets a friend when there is something worth sharing and would not both about their status and ranking in this "dog bites dog" society. True friends will look after each others back, help each other and never once abandon one no matter how bad is he or she.

Well, that is practically what i think a true friend should be. Not just fulfilling one criteria i mentioned but all has to be done at all times, never once forget or neglect. Now, let me ask you a question, "Are you really a True Friend to your friends? Did you fulfill what has to be done?" Don't have to answer me but to yourself^^

One word of advice to end this blog: Be truthful to your friends^^ Cherish them

Me and the other...Me

Probably not everyone of you that would actually wonder why do you question yourself in some certain situation, no matter is calmly or when you feel the frustration in you. Even if you do wonder, don't worry, it's not that you are insane or anything, you are still human. It is questions like these that makes anyone of us sane. 

Have you ever encounter in a situation where you question yourself with questions that contradict with each other? Well..some maybe yes...some no....or some even...I dunno.... but anyway...this post is all bout' you argue-ing with yourself... not the one with Jeff Dunham & his many puppets act... XD

Well, I think it certainly did happen to anyone of us at a certain part of our life, i'm no exception. Things that had happened lately had made it worst till the day I was literally waken up by my friends....Frustrating indeed at first...but i'm not giving up, not even to the other me who keeps reminding myself of the negetive thoughts....NEVER SHALL I LOSE... >.<...

Okay...back to reading journals...lol....

ps: lacking of ideas to write on...lol....if anyone has a topic for me to talk about do tell me ya^^

My thoughts on Life should be...

I know some would want to

,

,

or switch off the



of life when they could not with-stand the pressure or problems of life.

As for me, I rather



my mistakes, take



of my life,



to a better life style, attitude and what-so-ever to



into from where we fall off and continue at where we left undone. ^^

Having my finals coming, i had my notes all piled up, or what it looks like to me XP,





for me to brace for the upcoming exams^^

I wish all of my fellow coursemates, and all my fellow friends from other courses, as well for my juniors (in case they get jelous...LOL) Good Luck!

True? False? Right? Wrong?

Everyone knows the definations to these words, but is it really what it meant from it defination?

All these while, we were trained to accept what is told be as the truth or false as how any other people think it is. No matter it is about experiences, studies and etc. What if one day, you were told what-ever you have learnt to accept so far, what-ever we have thought is right, is true, is wrong, false, incorrect is not what it is? What happen if you were told that the truth isn’t true and the false isn’t false? Will you just learn to accept it again, ‘rewrite’ what-ever that it is in your brain without further questions? Or will you stay stagnent unable to accept the new facts as it is, and reject it? Or will you wonder, try to ponder, confused, circulating around with your thoughts, thinking which is truly true? Ultimately, what IF I tell you, whats around you isn’t really real? What will you do?

We are supreme beings with the capability to decipher ourselves on what is true and what is false. Everyone of us has a different thought about it, thus no factor are able to control us. What-ever truth that we are being told are the just a small portion of it, the rest are for yourself to discover. No one else can tell you what is true besides yourself. Thats reality. Cheers. ^^v





Ps: Anything else that is fun or what is stated as a fact, there is the what people called as the greatest invention ever, GOOGLE. LOL

Life is like a road

Thanks to Lee Peng, I got something new to post. Quite a question asked by her. "How would you relate this picture to life?" Well Lee Peng, I hope you won't mind me posting this up since you asked me. Hehe....

Life is just like a road leading to an unknown destination. The destination is determine by the different crossroads that we meet along the way. Each choice you make, opens new path ahead of you, new destination. Like in the picture, tarmac roads seems smooth at first, just like how we live our lives under the protection of our parents. But as time passes by, the nice, new pavement road turns to be a little rocky, a little rough and sometimes holes. These are just mere obstacles that we have to face, and remember the destination is always waiting for you to reach. For years, human have invented cars for a smoother journey down the road. These are just like how we would want to improve in life, to work for it, to think of it and to understand for a smoother journey down to the destination in life. So, no matter how harsh is life to you and to anyone of us, I just want you to know, that each and everyone of us are here, as long we work it out, and cherish every moment in life, be grateful that you are alive in this beautiful Earth, walking down a road with obstacles and that we will face it together for the destination we have been trying to reach out. ^^ Cheers

Things that caught my eye during the 60 Earth Hour '09 event at CapSquare, KL

There several pictures that i took during my presence in the Earth Hour '09 event. Visit my facebook album to check it out^^

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=68742&id=651647631&l=2545417191

Vote EARTH! Go GREEN!

Yes, you saw the title right. I typed this post in conjunction with the Earth Hour ’09 that was held yesterday, 28th of March, at CapSquare, KL. (Well, the title was influnced by Puteri with “Vote Earth” and Joey G, who was the speaker of the event with “Go Green”.) That night, Joey G asked the audiences a very typical yet crucial question, what it means to “Go Green”? He has said that beside switching of the lightings and reducing the usage of electricity a day, there are also other means like not littering, not to waste of water to preserve Mother Earth and etc etc. Those are just the normal ways of people around us do things to be “green”. To think of it again, what it really means to “Go Green”?

I had a friend who asked me this similar question again right after the event. Obviously some would just answer the same like how Joey G said. “But think again do you really know what it means to “Go Green” and what it meant by “Go Green”?” said my friend. After hearing this, I knew want to know something more. (Actually he just needed help in his assignment. LOL) Well, this is what I explained to him.

The colour green to us represents the land, the environment, the very habitat of the very beings like us stay in the heart of our great Mother Earth. The green could represent the very simple cell of an organism to the largest tree on Earth. It was the greens that we as humans have our very basic materials to build our own shelter. It was the greens that to many have thought to bring peace in mind. It was the greens that build up the very foundation of the many cures to the disease as well as for the future of anti-cancer drugs. It was the greens that has been a great habitat for the vast population of various kinds of animals. The very green itself states the primary state of the looks of our lands that is now a tale to tell to many of the countries to their nations’ children. Would you want it to be the same for you in the future?

Without the greens, our Mother Earth would looks as bare from space. The lost of many flora and fauna would eventually become a part of the museum or even just in a book, noting as a story to tell to the following generations ahead of what it looks like. We are not selfish beings who only care for ourselves, we are beings created with interlectual abilities who are able to think of what is best for us as well as for the best of our future generations ahead. You wouldn’t want your children to suffer. You don’t even want you, yourself to suffer from the countless why as well as the countless answer to give to your children, to explain of all the lost environment that we once have. Besides, you don’t want to stroll around the park wearing special made suits and mask. Am I right? Hehe

Go Green to me would mean to vanquish of whatever source that might cause such a tragedy in the future and to do something that might eventually lighten the burden for the recovery of our beloved Mother Earth. You don’t want Mother Earth to do something to us like in the movie “The day after tomorrow” right? It is an act to repay what Mother Earth has gave us, it is to repent of the things that we have taken for granted, it is going towards a goal of restoring the “Green” part of the world, not just for you, or for me. Its for everyone and everything on Earth. Vote Earth! Go Green!

For more information, check out the Earth Hour website for Malaysia. Support the movement of Earth Hour

What is a MAN/LADY?

Whoa....volley of posts....haha...third one and on going....anyway this is also another request.

I was asked this question, what is a man to me and vice-versa.

Haha....well...what is a man....Biological wise, a man is a male human who has over gone the part called puberty and gained maturity. But to many out there, what does a real man really mean? A guy who is able to be doing everything without any help? A guy who is able to fight off anyone in a fight and save a gal like in stories? A guy who is able to lead people? or is it a guy who is able to deal with peoples problem?

haha...since i was ask to publish my opinion, then i shall do so.

For a man/lady to be a MAN/LADY, the following has to be achieved:
1. Be yourself to no matter to anyone, but be ready to accept changes.
2. Put down your ego. (reality wise, non is able to do so.)
3. Able to take care of yourself as well as others but never force yourself to go through tough times.
4. Admit your weakness and change it whenever needed.
5. Be proud of who you are.
6. Most important, believe in the you that those who love that believe you. *winks*

To me, if you are able to do so, then you are the MAN/LADY!!! ^^

Story of $25 from Liv jie

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'
DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.
SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.
SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'
SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.
SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious, "If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities."

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.
The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?
After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think:
Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25 and he really didn't ask for money very often.
The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

"Are you asleep, son?" He asked.
'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.
"I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier" said the man.
"It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for."
The little boy sat straight up, smiling. "Oh, thank you daddy!" he yelled.

Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.
The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.
The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

"Why do you want more money if you already have some?" the father grumbled.
"Because I didn't have enough, but now I do," the little boy replied.
"Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you."

Be you...Just you

This is a request from one of my friend who wanted to open the eyes of someone they treasure about the importance of living their life as their own.

Was walking down the street, minding my own business and accidentally eavesdropping into someone's conversation, probably talking to a friend or so... But yet talking about something very similar to what most people these days talks about...."I wish I can be like someone else...."

Years back I had wished for the same thing, like the saying goes, "the grass is always greener on the other side". I had a friend, who always wanted to be like his idols like anyone else, till it had been some kind of a nuisance to most of the people out there. Obviously to a point, trying to be someone that you are not would only bring yourself to bitter point of life if you could not achieve it. Its not wrong to put someone you idolize to set as a goal to achieve, don't get me wrong...hehe....but its just that don't get consumed by it.

To kinda think back, if it wasn't because of some of my friends and me, I couldn't imagine what is the future of him. The thing i remembered so far on that incident was a punch on the face and told him this, "SHUT UP AND LIVE ON YOUR OWN LIFE YOUR OWN WAY, NOT OTHERS. THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE *****(name of idol not mentioned), AND ONLY ONE YOU!" Bold? but true enough, good thing that got him back to reality.

We've seen enough from the world around us, the news and what ever it is that we manage to get our hands to. Someone just trying to be someone else, for instance for gals to be following how a model work their lives, living in their own lives, spending and even to the point of pursuing the "ultimate" body figure and getting the perfect boyfriend and etc etc. I remember there was a news on gals getting into slimming pills just to be like Paris Hilton or the Olsen Twins, besides pills they even became anorexic, vomiting every piece of things out of the mouth after they are in. Life-threatening leh* (Typical Malaysian Chinese style of speech).

The bottom line is, why bother being someone you are not? People would not appreciate someone who couldn't even live up to their own life. Is there any fun to it being someone else? What will you do if you manage to achieve without being in one piece? What will you do if you were able to achieve it? End your life? Get angry about it and hate yourself? Come on, you must have realize there is a reason why you are given a name by your parents. I remember i asked my mom once, I only remember she told me that there can only be one person to have such a name, her son of hers^^ (Chinese name so can be easily differentiated but same goes to all other names no matter race or culture). Besides, living like someone else, from my point of view, its kinda boring, living your own life to the max with your own creation to your wonderful life....ain't that even better? XD

To that person...like the famous sentence from Russell Peters..."You! Be a MAN! Do The Right Thing!" She likes the person that you are and not the you that imitates someone else.^^ Cheers