Upset

"some times, its quite sad to have your actions to be suspicious even if its meant to keep yourself from being in a losing situation. Most of the time is ignorable, but this time it hurts bad."

This is the sentence that got my into brain ever since an incident happened. I know its my fault, I know it wrong to ask. But I'm just trying to avoid any mistakes from happening. If this are lost in between, I have nothing to refer to, nor do I have the proof that I've done things right. If its done wrongly, who am I suppose to go to?

If I have a choice given in the same situation, I would have done the same thing again. Selfish? I don't know. Honestly, I was weighing between my lost and other's. I thought the understanding in between would resolve any conflict, though knowing myself something would happen but I just gave it a shot. Looks like now, its still ended up a bit sour. My situation, I wish some would actually understand a little more in depth, but assumption are more than it is to many. Even so, I would just give a friendly face, and even give a helping hand no matter how deep he/she throws me in a deep pit of trouble or suffers.

No, I'm not pointing fingers to anyone. Its just the same thought that got me sometimes. I've been weighing my self importance to others at times. In today's society, its not wrong to think so, but if others would to do the same thing, they would eventually think differently. Its a cause and effect world out there people say, if you don't do this, you'll get the other. Sometimes, decisions like these spoils relationships and sometimes the mental damage. The funny thing is, I don't even know which to choose, to harm others or to save self?

I've been nagged, scolded when I was a kid, and lectured when I was teenager of the same matter. I was always told that I have a big 'example' in front of my eyes, everyday of what not to do, but in the end I got myself hurt, no one knows of the existence of such problem, others happy, life goes on. Easy isn't it for others? But if it's the other way around, relationships are hurt, things goes bad, things doesn't goes on well. In either ways, I'm hurt.

If one is in my shoes, I'm not surprise if self is given more weigh than others. Reasons? Who wants to be in the giving end? Some may not feel it now, but when time comes you would. Everyone wishes others to understand them, but would those others take the step to understand others first? That's the main question.

Upset as I am now, I do not wish to upset anyone in this post. I'm sorry if I offended anyone in this post.

Long post after a long time away from blogging. Long time to read for readers. and so Long for now. Nites~

of tiramisu and cheese cake.....

i found this sentence when i was finding the meaning of both tiramisu and cheese cake. "Did you know that the literal meaning of Tiramisu is ‘pick-me-up’ and that Venetian courtesans used to eat it before their gentlemen arrived for the evening because they believed it would give them the energy to make love all night?” when i found out about it i was like...whoa!!! i noe lah 'pick me up' but energy to make love? XD

Tiramisu, did I miss you....haha....really i dont know how i came out wif it...but thx ya dat i post it up ur blog...haha....i'm not really dat good in words de leh... XD
but really, when ever u think of the meaning of tiramisu, take me away, werent u thinking of someone? missing someone? XD dats wat i think lah^^

cheese cake....hmmm....nothing much besides sweet from outside, sticks in the mouth, melts on the tongue....tongue, heart of taste...thus meaning indirectly melts in the heart... whoa! though only something that short but is enough i guess... melts in the heart or melt the heart? XD thats all dat i found bout the meanings...haha to anyone who read this n would like me to add something bout it just comment in this post n i'll add it on^^

Busy..

ZzzzZZzzZZzZzZzzZZZZ................busy busy.....FYP-ing.... ARGH.....I need inspirations!!!!!!!...><

pics of the day

one update....I'm learning phtography...haha

Back but with no new hitz yet

YO!!! i'm back after working hard for my semester....hopefully it pays off.... anyway..nothing much to update yet...not really don't have, but more like too much till the point i forgot what I wanna update...haha...

Anyway, I'm starting a new section in this blog... It's called the "my picture of the day"

I'm no photographer, but just someone who is interested to learn more bout it... My pics ain't nice but I'll keep learning...haha.... the following I took it with my dad's Nikon CoolPix S200... I saw this kid looking at all these guitars so i decided to take his pic though I'm high up above

Actions and Responsibility

Finally, I'm able to post here again....been busy try to catch up with my own studies...haha...

For the past few days, 3 news caught my attention.
1. The lost of Yasmin Ahmad
2. Case of Teoh Beng Hock
3. Barrack Obama's apology


I will not discuss anything about the truth and facts of each cases, neither am I going condemn or post something inappropriate. Instead, I'm going to comment about the reaction of people around about the cases.

First of all, I would like to send my condolences to the family of Yasmin Ahmad. She was a wonderful and inspiring person. Lively as she was, she had contributed much in the movie industry as well as many of the popular advertisements under the name of Petronas. When I thought I could get my opportunity to meet her face to face, it faded. Well, I guess it ain't my luck huh... But truly, she is a real treasure of Malaysia and I'm proud if her as a Malaysian.

I remember, past few days, when I came across my friend's facebook status regarding on the sad news of Yasmin Ahmad, someone actually commented that my friend is ignorant on the case of Teoh Beng Hock, which in turn leads my second topic, case of Teoh Beng Hock. I will not mention the name who commented the status, but I would like to highlight the importance of responsibility towards the action that one is going take.

Have you ever wonder or thinking twice of the consequences that would bound to happen for the action you are about to make?

The particular person who commented on my friend status says that how we are ignoring the fact of the case of Teoh is totally reluctant and has no guts nor the bravery to stand up for the cause. Sadly to say, many people has the same kind of mindset for such a sensitive issue. I'm not pro-government nor am I anti-government, but in my opinion, IF one can be responsible for what-ever that had happened including plunging the country into chaos, I don't see what is wrong with doing so provided its on the correct cause.

This has seems to be a major problem in the world. For many to think, they will just do what they think is right without taking into the account of what might happen next, and when things happen after quite sometime then the responsibility is pushed away, neglecting the responsibility. This is the reason of the happenings in many third world country and also to the countries which were in chaos, causing death to many. The last thing that we ever need is another May 13th incident to be happening.

As for example, my third point, Barrack Obama apology towards the police after what he has done, even for a person with such power like him. It is not because of guilt, it is not because that he was forced to, but its because of the responsibility for the thing he has cause due to the action that took.

In short, if what you've started, even it has happened for quite sometime since your last action, has become the spark of tragedies and incidents, please do be responsible for it. If not you are just a normal human who just follows instincts which might cause the life of many.

Cheers^^

Happy Father's Day

For a day like this...I only think of how much my father has done his part of being a parent. He may not be the perfect father, but among the things that most fathers do, he has done several things that has out-done any father out there, he has the perfect side for those he is able to achieve for us, not to mention his tremendous patiences and sense of humour. For that, I wish my dad, happy father's day. Dad, I Love You!!