Believe in yourself

*"look like a bloody gay...lol"

Hello & welcome again in to my realm right at the point blank of reality...lol...to frequent readers, I would like to say my many thanks for "staying tune"..haha.. as for the new readers, welcome and please do comment and give your name^^

With no further delay, let me say about this really boring, yet a topic that has yet to inspire people to be so. Yes...it's bout believing yourself. Sounds simple, yet sometimes its not something easy to achieve especially with certain situations like....people not trusting you or probably you've failed in something for several times and you were asked to do it again.

Well, the best example that people give these days as motivation is nothing more than upcoming President of the United States of America, Barrack Obama. Hey, no doubt he is a great man that he made it thru this elections but did you know the harsh comments and strong opposition. Why? look at him....His Black. That's the word, black. The US has been known for its discrimination towards colours, well, last time...haha...But look at it now, it was he that won the election, with plenty of supporters.

When i listened to his speech, it wasn't what he said in his speech that made me wanted to support him (of course, i can't vote for him), but it was the self confidence, the amount of believe that he gave himself that inspired people to believe in the changes that he could bring, the many crisis that he stumble upon them and make them disappear. That's the thing that made people believe in him.

I used to be one of the kind of people who never believed in myself in doing anything, in the end, I couldn't achieve anything. No doubt when try you might fail again, but for sure, everytime you try there is a chance that you will succeed, as what the saying of the Chinese says, everything has it's balance like yin and yang. If you don't try, you'll get no chance instead. So, which is better?^^

For another example, Nick Vujicic, which was introduced to by Belle. Now, that's a real man i tell you. I guess by looking at the video clip that I add below, you'll understand why I say so.










Do you get why you need that believe in yourself already? Well like Nick says be thankful with what you have. Because if you bad, you don't worth anything, then....what about him?^^

Think about it my friends. Take your time, look around you and learn to absorb^^ Like Nick said, Don't just wish, do it!! haha...which reminds me of the first movie of the Matrix. Morpheus told Neo, "Don't try to hit me and hit me." Get me? ^^

YES Man

No no no...don't get this title wrong...it ain't the same as the topic before... This is basically based on what I saw in the trailer for the movie 'YES' or 'Yes Man' from imdb.com, which it's main actor is carried by Jim Carrey.

Well, to be honest, from the first looks of it, it seems like another humour movie which we probably laugh our heads off knowing nothing at all like the old school flick acted by Jim Carrey. But to kinda think of it....how many or to some, how much (superbly in plurality...lol, no such words though) times that we say the word 'No' and how unlikely for us to say the word 'Yes'? well, in general, anything that comes to you...

In the trailer, Carl Allen (Jim Carrey) has the most negative characteristics and has always use the famous word of all....'No'...till he met Terrance Bundley (Terrance Stamp) who challenged him to say the word 'Yes' without saying any 'No' for a full year to everything...(to be honest, can't be to anything lah...haha...it would be purely stupid...sorry for the ill manner, anyway that's not the main point ^^)... At the part of the trailer which when he started to notice the changes in his life towards the positive side. This is where it had struck me. This is the point where we should change, this is the turning point, or at the very least, the U-turn towards a better, healthier lifestyle.

But seriously, have you really count on how many 'Yes' that you've said so far towards any opportunity or to any situations even talking to your friends or your own child?

As much as studies has made, the word 'Yes' is the most popular, positive word to everyone. But yet, as one ages, the lesser the word have been used, especially during times these days when everything is a risk, everything seems like as is its life threatening. Anything can cause thing to change inside out.

Even if it's so, why not take it as a change for the best instead for the worst?^^ this is the same logic used when someone asked you to look a glass filled with water, whether it is half full or half empty.

What i'm trying to say here is, give yourself a chance to be positive, give yourself a chance by just saying the word 'Yes'. Who knows, you might even have your very own life change for the best and having yourself to live your life to the max and enjoy it^^

so....Would you think you're life is like a glass half full or half empty? ^^ Do tell me ya...

Something to take note of...

(making the scene as if like in the cave from the matrix show....walking to the stage is me..not Morpheus..haha.. XD) Silence!!!! Hear me!!!

I shall say something that not many people like us or even younger that know anything about it... I believe that most of our parents are concern of the same thing....what is it? What is it that they are afraid of? Do you know? DO YOU KNOW EXACTLY????

People....hear me....what's most important now its the economics....the finance systems...and the other thing that people want it the most MONEY!!!! The section you all skip the most when we are reading the newspapers...what we read are just the normal news....the entertainment news and probably a bit of the world news....but how many has yet to bother about the current situation of the world's economics...

Yes!!! I'm taking about the current economic meltdown.... Does anyone know about the impact and how woould affect us? Do You All Know What's Gonna Happen If We Don't Do A Thing To Improve...To Understand?

I urge u all to seek for information....Make yourselfclear of the situation....Make yourself understand what's going on...Be aware..Be prepared as this will go on till the day we graduate and the 'best' things has yet to come...

People...follow me and lets make people understand of the current status....follow me and come with a campaign to help people around us to be aware to make us suit for the 'better' world ahead... WHO'S WITH ME? WHO'S WITH ME?!!!!

Do more than what I say

I went back to UTAR to get some books to study a bit during the holidays.... sad case eh? people wanting to be away from books but yet I still get books to read... I came across this book in the library....the title reads...




you read it...PLEASE DON'T JUST DO WHAT I TELL YOU!

When i read this title, it just smack right at the face...like WHOA!!! ain't kidding man...this book is good... This is something what most leaders, bosses or whatever high level ranking in management wants from their underlings.... Do more than just what they are suppose to do....

This is no different from our daily lifes too... do more not less nor the same par... truely soemthing that i've learnt during the last sem which pays off...well..thats all for now...check out that book if you even come across to it....i tell you..its a good one^^

Oops...mistake....

Yeah...like how my title spells....a mistake, a man-made error of what i meant by the meaning of a 'stand-alone complex'....probably i was just finding a more suitable, bombastic words to replace the word 'independent'.... but yeah...we still could not get away from the fact of what the real meaning of what this 'stand-alone complex' really stands for....

a 'stand-alone complex'...actions of individuals creating a seemingly concerted effort...initially it really seemed rather unrelated for some events but yet similar in some ways, actions or thoughtsthough sometimes its just unknown why do we use it at times...that's stand-alone complex....

How should I put it? hmmmm.... basically the title Anonymous....its part of the stand-alone complex that i'm trying to highlight... You don't know when, where or most importantly who really started with this title or name 'Anonymous'...basically it can just be anyone.... well there is still many more of how to explain what 'stand-alone complex means' will tell once i get more info...but for now...yeah....that's the brief idea of it^^

Changes

haha....i'm back...but this time i'm not going post something new...but rather repost something that i've posted somewhere else...so read and hope that you will understand....

I was browsing thru my friendster...which eventually i read my blogs that i once typed in my friendster... one that caught my eyes was da one rite after the general election....i wondered why did i blogged thr and not here....but anyway...to those who did not noe bout it..here it is...

Changes...its what everybody wants...changes in every aspects of life...But if you want a change, why don't work it out yourself instead of relying on people to do it for you, or change their course of their lives for you while you just shake your legs around...

This words came from my mind after a mixture of thoughts. Thoughts? What thoughts? Probably it seems a little weird for a person like me to actually think much about a matter, but then it just came out from my mind. My mom just described to me how people complain in the office of the new DUN. The things they complain, its not something that can't be done by their own hands, but why not do it themselves? Reason is simple, "It's their job to do it for us, let them do their job." From that are you telling me we have no responsibility at all into improving our own place? Our own habitat?

That's just as an example. People tend to rely on others to do changes while not doing anything themselves. Sad to say, I've meet up with some future adults which acted the same way which i mentioned. Don't meet up with their criteria? You're out! Not bloody welcomed anymore. Not much of the use to them anymore. Don't have to look at politics to see this kinda situation. It's known that some make friends to make sure that they change for the better and more, but some just misuses the needs of the change and hurt people when use of the friend has a purpose. A purpose once reach it limits then off you go. That's not what its suppose to be.

Some might think...a person will not change anything. For me, a person can change his/her self and eventually change the world itself. So change what you are able to change, don't leave for others. (ps: blogging in the middle of the night really ain't good...XD feeling sleeping liao...tata~~)



Changes....isn't something that everyone wants? like i posted before...everyone wants changes from almost every aspects...if its bad,v wan it good....if it's good, v wan it to be better... be as v noe...changes doesn't just come and does miracles for us for FREE... it doesn't just come knocking on your doorstep..."helloooo....changes is here..." well...if it does, i think most of us will freak out...coz v can't c changes physically.... XD (catch my drift? u can't c changes....if u can't c...whr is da voice coming from?)



I forgotten to add something after i posted the blog on friendster...well of coz after i read it only i notice....well...there is one more point dat i didn't mention in the blog... the thing is this....in our society...well to most of us now, campus life.... ppl tend to grumble at someone else bout ppl's lifestyle...the way ppl live....the way ppl bring themselves up...honestly speaking, i used to be one of dat kind of ppl...but now...i'm da one being discussed among ppl in my campus...not many ppl understand my way of living my life....but because of some certain individuals...some actually hated me and even condamned my style...the "best" ever comment so far...'tong...u r hopeless... get a life...change urself.." well...knowing this, i think most ppl if were to meet up wif such 'comments' they would get real mad n angry at things n etc,etc... well...knowing my old self....i would hav trashed the person...haha...but now..actually accepted it...i changed but i dont change for their sake...i didn't change to suit their taste... i change for the better me...a me which i am comfortable wif n i believe many r too... u c...wats most important in life about changes in ppl around u...is not about wanting ppl to change just suit your taste....(well if everyone change to be da same...isn't it gonna be boring? then wat for v r different from each other once born?) the important thing is changing urself to understand and to accept wat ppl say and how they live n etc, etc...coz if u keep wanting ppl to change for ur opinion and if the person doesn't change isn't gonna be frustrating...n like dat...a friendship would just be ruined....so..y bother doing so? ^^



so...change..for urself...towards the society...towards future ahead...n most importantly...comfortable wif urself....n mayb..if u r lucky..someone who is feeling comfortable wif who u r would just come along^^

The 'yes' man...

The first time i heard of this term, i was like..."what the....what's that suppose to mean?" But from what it sounds like...I realise that the meaning is actually very simple....a person who only says yes... At one point of the view, its good...But when it comes to hierarchy of power and authorities in certain aspects, its no longer what is suppose to seems like...to the chinese, its called "cleaning/polishing people's shoes"...when it comes into decision making and just follow with what people thinks you should do without thinking twice whether you should do or not....to people, its called brainless..(please excuss me for my rudeness, just being straight-forward^^ hope you don't mind)

For me, I won't do anything much but only to tell them....every single one of us are just like computer's operating system....Which what we known as stand-alone systems....We are like computer AIs...learn what we learn, digest them but analyse them at the same time too....we are given brains to think, to analyse and also to act to out thought, which ever is rational and for the good of us....

I've watched Ghost-in-the-Shell...well...practically, so far of what i've watched, i've understand this point...with a certain degree of confidence and faith in yourself....we are able to make a difference for ourselves if we are able to think and do things on our own... and just being a 'yes' man/girl or whatever it is... aren't like computers which some of the programs act on reponses and commands... but like what i've mentioned...we aren't like computers...we are all stand-alone complexes....we are able to stimulate, find answer, find solutions, able to think for what is rational to our bodies ourselves....that's what makes us complicated, makes us differ from almost anything else in this world...

WAKE UP! WAKE UP i say...keep yourself together....non of us are follower who only blindly say yes....we are not people who just follow other's opinion blindly....we aren't born to be followers...that's what i can say.... What i meant as stand-alone complex is that no matter what it is, we are still able to move on with or without people's support.... We live up to our own lives and not living on others nor people living to us...we are able to descriminate what's good and what's bad for us.... That's what i meant by stand-alone...

I urge those who thinks of the status of where placing whoever beside us to be controlled or to control others as you think to change your way of thinking, and relate yourself more to reality....this world is full of this phrase... "What goes around, comes around"...

You don't need to have the abilities nor the capabilities of being a leader to do so....you are a leader of your own...only your are able to be firm and to change your and only yourself...the rest is up to others....to do for themselves....do not try to push nor do not try to harm others when trying to persuade them to follow you....act on yourself before thinking acting on others... in a rude manner... "Mind Your Own Business"...

Well..back into studying my microbiology for tomorrow's quiz....JA~~ ^^

Reality SUX!!!

'REALITY SUX!!!!!!' Don't anyone just hates it that way....many people at least at a point will actually hate their own life till they really wanna give up... well....i can't really deny that i've had this kind of thinking before....but since i'm able to survive up till now (which i used to think that it's a miracle for me...wahaha XD), so i shall share a little of how to make your life a little more better than what you're experiencing now^^ Don't get me wrong...i'm not giving advice nor instructions on how to live on your life...i'm just merely telling you my side of the story and hope that you are able to get something from it^^

hmmm...how shall I start then....why don't I list down of what problems that I've been thru lately...^^

1. Accused and being made as public enemy, weirdo, d*****s (sorry, can't curse..XD), bad person to meet especially gals from people in my uni.

2. Pressure of failure, of what i'm unable to achieve and letting people down.

3. Unable to accept the fact for things that happened or being in the state of denial.

4. People double-crossing me....

5. People butt-ing in my agenda and sometimes ruinning it at the same time...

6. Meeting someone who tries to be the best at both sides with a different motive than what I see...aka Two Face

Well, that about how many that i can remember...haha

The above of what I had mentioned i believe many of you had also went thru the exact same thing as I do. At that time when I was having these problems, I used to feel very down, which includes asking myself several 'whys'....
After going thru all these....what i can say is.. SNAP OUT OF THOSE NONSENSE THINGS...just snap out or you will be stranded forever in this 'sea' of society... I almost got stranded out there without any life line.... I used to feel so down to the point I even think that my family members weren't helping when they had been my source of support for such a long time...many life line had been thrown to me during those times but I've just rejected it... Scared that I would be a burden to them.... But if you are burden to you family members, then why would they ever bare you ever since you were born? think about it^^

As for the other parts that had gotta do with human relationships, like betrayal and etc etc. 1 sentence that I've learnt some where... "Forgive and forget for they have done and change"...I know many would resolve to anger or even go for the last resorts like hiting people, and some would even commit suicide...(to those who do things like what I mentioned like mocking, accussing people and caused them to commit suicide...ethically, aren't you commiting a murder? Think about it if you really did one...and think from the other view when you are the one who got back-fired?)

Yes, just forgive and forget....just move on with your life when ever there is an obstacles....find your most trusted person...talk to them a bout it...and never reject any help from others...you aren't alone...I believe no matter who you are and what is your identity...there will always be someone beside you...if you don't...hehe...I don't mind lending an ear and opening my hands to lend a helping hand...^^ Like one chinese saying..."When you fall, pick yourself up and keep going, never to look back into the past of failures and mistakes but learn to receive, absorb, and change"^^

That's all for now....kinda busy these days till I was unable to keep up with blogging and composing my stories...all left hangging.. XP But anyhow...JA~NE~~~^^

Uni and its various inhabitants

Hi-sa-shi-bud-thi....thats the first thing i start saying when i meet up with my last schoolmates... It has really been a long time since i met them... Today I went out to get my laptop to check...seems like it's hard disk really 'died' liao.... T.T my datas.... really make me wanna cry nia.... anyway, today i brought Teck Khiam, who used to be my ex-schoolmate during my Form 6 years...we even went to Penang together last time.... Nice of him to tag along... but speaking bout' the topic, yeah we pratically talked to each other bout the kind life that we are going through all this while...the most that we've talked about is not the best party that joined, not which one of us gets the best gal, but the kinds of people that we met during campus life...

The list of the types of people that we've meet so far:
1. The selfish only wants benefit for themselves type
2. The sabotage type
3. The ones who wanna just 'stab' you for the sake of doing so
4. The type that influence people to do their dirty jobs

There many more but I couldn't remember much...hehe..pai seh...but anyway it seems like most of us ended up meeting the same type of people around us...typical eh.... But anyway this post ain't the post on how to handle such persons but more like letting you know that such a person exists...no matter how far into the society you go into...^^

Well so far i've really met that much kinds of people.... at times it really hurts me for knowing people like them but then its also a part of growing in this society^^

What i can say is...endure...you don't have to be them to win them at times....patients is virtue.... haha..over-thinking liao...very tired....don't want my holidays to end up being angry wif people rite? XD

So to those who wanna get rid of being 'destroyed' by them..just endure n you will save yourself from almost anything n learn to grow^^

Argh!!! MEB...YAY!! Last Paper!!!

Hey...this is another post about the finals that i'm going thru this time of year and this semester... I'm quite happy that this sem is almost over, just the final piece of paper to get thru with... Very happy that is the last paper...but the thing is...MEB.... the following are pictures that will show you my condition....

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D.E.A.D......

That's rite.... DEAD... hahaha...wanna noe the reason? Here it is...

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M.E....

M.E.B...

Yes....Its MEB.... Metabolic Biochemistry..... OMG so much reactions to memorize.... but what to do.....just hav to fo it ba..^^ Last paper.... I will strive on to the very last minute with this paper...^^ then HOLIDAY!!!! XD By then, MISSION KAN-IRIU!!! XD

Some random things that i drew when I'm bored of studying a bit...hehe

Link of this blogspot...hehe...

Another blogspot which i'm associated with....one of the pioneers of that blog...hehe....to UTARian..must check out o...^^v

OMG!!! I'm TAGGED???!!!!

OMG!!! Kena Tagged again...looks like i really have to do it....Sorry Winney...I noe u Tagged me long time ago...give me some time k...I'll post ur's soon... hehe... Well... let's see da questions and see wat i answered k... ^.^

1. At what age do you wish to get marry?
At first if was very, very illogical....till i get my research done...but now I think i'll stick back to reality like wat all this blog is all about...reality....Let me think...below the age of 35 i guess..

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or girlfriend
Sorry Kelvin...have to change the question...lol... Well lets see...though girlfriend is much more important but i'll make things as even as possible...like how i've been maintaining all these...not really successful but i strive to make things better...^^

3. Who is the person you trust the most?
haha...totally different from Kelvin...I kinda trust 2 person in my life now....^^...both as equally important

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
haha...i think...i lost this confidence in me once....will never lose it again...

5. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
to able to gain enough knowledge to cure people around me from diseases dat once grabbed someone influencial enough to me...

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
LOL...law of light in physics r Kelvin...lol.... XD well...look at it...as long v imagine, the rainbow will always be thr, like hope n future too....wat v need is a strong heart and determination to obtain wat v want... if it exist in u, to u, for u...then it shall be thr...

7. What is your goal for this year?
get myself better...to obtain wat i need in order to get closer to my dream

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Do you believe in reincarnation then? if you do then eternity love shall be thr

9. Have you broken someone heart that she/he tried to commit suicide?
not that i noe of....i may not be mean to do such a thing..but sometimes my kindness does do such a thing, well...just heart broken....

10. What feeling do you love most?
the feeling of my existance in public's eyes...as someone who i am n not da one being said thru rumors...

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
requirements r not needed....search thru ur heart n seek for the one you love...if its me then dat is all i need...

12.Have you ever hated someone very deeply before?
'hate' was something i erased partially away from my 'dictionary'...lol....

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yes....anyone is a fren....no matter to them i'm a fren or a foe....as long u dont hurt me or anyone beside me dat is....

14. Do you believe in GOD?
yes....well...i'm still a human...i will believe as it is....the All Mighty One...

15. What do you think is the most important thing in in your life?
Every single one around me....

16. Who cares for you the most?
my family, n those who trusted me for my believes and also my views

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
who is dear to me

18. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
regret is one thing dat i learn to grow strong from....n still learning to grow on....but i dont just grieve over regret...

19. IF time were to rewind, will you want it to be?
a better person...but if too much i'll probably be back in my mom's womb or even as part of my dad's sperm and my mom's ovum....lol XD

20. What will you do if your mums gives u anything you want?
I'll probably be spoiled like mad....now itself i'm already half spoiled which has caused my mom lots of trouble...sry dat i always increase on spending...i'm so sry....but i'm trying my best...

Instructions:Remove one question from below,and add in your personal question.Make it a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people.List them out at the end of the post.Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged.Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all :D

1.Yong
2.Paul
3.Belle
4.Yeori
5.Apple Wey Wey
6.William Ang
7.Winney
8.Stephalicious Stephy.. XD

FINALS!! I declare war upon you!!!

ARGH!!! Finals....kinda depressing when u found out you know nothing about the coming paper that is coming as if Goliath as come into your campus and you're suppose to be Jason, just that this time you're being whack down to bits and pieces. 0.0"

So you know, i decided blog a little and even took some pics of what happen when people like forgets things that suppose to be in my memory ever since Form 6.

The date of the paper....TMR!!! OMG.....*panic*

Trying to concentrate...concentrating....

Still trying to concentrate.....

And concentrating......

Scratching me head...still concentrating...

ARGH!!! What is this???!!!!

!!!!!!!

*BANG* hit my head on the table.... HeLp~~~!

These are what 'killed' me....

break with a pack of Twisties...sorry Kit-Kat, i had you yesterday....haha...so today, have a break, have a Twisties... XD

Yeah...back to work.... 'Work, Work' (imitate peons in the game, Warcraft III)

Seriously, its really stressful especially you're having goals to reach, and you were given high hopes from various parties...I remember when i was resting yesterday, i watched Hellsing.... Not Van Hellsing, but the japanese anime, Hellsing. Its the 4th OVA that i watch...to some its really gory but then to me its fine if you understand the histories of Count Dracula. This anime's main character was actually who we known as Count Dracula, just that this time his name have been altered and had his body went thru some changes from his abilities. The No-Life King. His name? Alucard. (Ironic isn't it, the total reverse spelling for Dracula). In this anime, he has a rival...I mean till now the only word i can use is the word rival for this person. His name? Paladin Father Alexander Anderson. According to the anime, he is from the Vatican's Secret Section XIII, namely Iscariot, a trump card of the Vatican, under the command of his superior, Maxwell, to get ready for a war between the man and monsters.... Under the name of the Greek God of War, MARS. After hearing that, he got into a trance and got himself hyped up for battle, shouting the word, MARS!!!!

Now its my turn....MARS!!!!!! under the name of the famous Greek's God of War....MARS!!!! Finals!!! I declare war upon you!!! MARS!!!!! haha...i shall 'fight' you with the very bits of my knowledge... Beware....Muahahaha (The effects of having enough pressure and stress to turn me into this way...haha...)

So long for now....i have to get back to my studies liao...jaa!!

First post on Blogger

Wassup^^ first time on Blogger.com....hehe...i remember it used to call blogspot.com n now Blogger...lol....

Maybe some of you would notice dat this blog page is called "Point Blank of Reality"... I'm actually thinking of expressing my thoughts bout the world and the society around me... explaining wat i've experienced so far as a youth and even try to help people understand bout how the society goes around wif my experience so far... giving advice n as a good listener (i consider myself a great listener like some would address me.. ><) to problem is wat i aim to help ppl. I'm not here to reveal the 'spots' of reality dat is hidden from us but just to make some things clear to those who is having problem in understanding the society....and if i dont hav a good solution? Lets learn to get thru this problem together^^

Having finals now...and weird thing is i'm blogging...lol but dont think wanna let this blog be empty....anyway ja! more to come soon^^